Back in high school, I had a rather bad habit of trying to someone I wasn’t because we live in a society that labels anyone who isn’t cool, as a crazy person. I had decided to stay away from labels so I tried different ways of being cool, to be more chill person. But (and yes there is ALWAYS a but) Since the start of college, I have come to realization that not everyone will understand my passion, my sensitivity or even my overzealous reaction to even the rather mundane things.
And I have also heard a lot of phrases from “my friend circle”, pharses like:
1. You can’t survive with that sort of attitude
2. You need to change yourself
3. You need to bring a change in your personality… etc etc etc
I have to come a realization that the truth is I’d rather be passionate, sensitive and ‘crazy’ and be me than try to be someone else. I’d rather not to be cool, chill and calm if it’s going to bring me temporary people, fleeting happiness and attract a bunch of people who don’t really like me for who I am.
Because I’ve had people who loved and accepted me all my life, I’ve had people who loved my passion, understood my sensitivity and appreciated my overzealous nature. People who are still in my life. Friends who think my heart is the reason why they stayed in my life.
And maybe we don’t need to change something if we don’t think it’s wrong. Maybe we don’t need to change it if it’s serving us well. Maybe we don’t need to be part of the majority to feel like we belong. Maybe all we really need is to be better versions of ourselves and the right people will find us and love us for all the right reasons.
And at the end of the day, If you want to change, change because you want to, because you feel like you need to, because it’s going to make your life better but please don’t ever change for people, don’t ever let people sway you into believing that there’s something wrong with you just because you feel things differently. Please don’t ever apologize for your feelings. Embrace Yourself.