I just finished the show “13 Reasons Why” and it brought back a lot of sad, dark memories. So I felt it was necessary to reach out to all those Hannahs in this world that feel they don’t have anyone and are feeling like no matter what they do, they keep letting other people down. They start thinking how everyone’s lives would be better without them. And what does that feel like? It feels like nothing; like a deep, endless always blank nothing. And for those of you who will be looking for signs everywhere, what does it really look like? Here’s the scary thing; it looks like NOTHING. How do I know because I have been there. For a better part of my high school I felt like a waste of space. Like, I was not needed and that no one cared enough about me. I know it better than most that this is not a phase, because I still feel that way. I wanted to write this because there are more than enough assholes in the world judging kids for whatever flaws they have or whatever rumors they have heard. Here it is for all the fighters.
Dear Hannah,
I want you to know that no matter where ever you are and who ever you are; I am thinking about you, I am praying for you and even though I don’t know who you are. We might never be friend and I may never see you or cry with you or get drunk with you. But I love you. I hope that you escape this place that you are stuck in or find someone to share this with because there is nothing worst than being alone in that dark place. I’m sorry I can’t be there for you right now but If you ever feel like doing anything stupid, read this letter. And I hope that the world turns and that things get better for you, and that one day you realize that your existence matters a lot more than you can imagine at this point. Until then, keep fighting this war, and I know you will make me proud. I wish I could kiss you for making it this far. I LOVE YOU.
Your Friend,
Kamran xoxo