Hello darkness, My Old Friend

Hello darkness, my old friend, I’ve come to talk with you again…

Darkness has a particularly apt feel about it for me right now. In terms of my life I feel like this is a dark period. A lot has changed since the start of 2016. Hell i’d go so far as to say a lot has changed since May. I’ve been enveloped by darkness over the last few weeks and it’s quite unclear if there is in fact a light to be found. It’s all been one giant upheaval; losing Annie been the biggest and most depressing of the bundle. That human size hole in my life feels like it’s a vacuum that’s sucking any joy or hope from me. Then there is find bigger and better things in a different place. It’s quite a scary notion to me.

But now I wanna change that because for the last 4 months have been horrible as well. The silence was the worst part. The silence of my own voice. I lost the ability to speak, yes, in a literal sense. I was so stressed out I couldn’t communicate in a manner that could be understood by others, so I have become isolated. I’ve gone over this so many times in my head since, but I’ve tried to stop the spiral before it takes me over the edge – hasn’t worked up so far but I am writing this time, so that is something to start with.

So instead of getting caught in a spiral, I am going to lose myself in a song this time….

Hello darkness, my old friend, I’ve come to talk with you again…